I’m selfish and I know it. I want my cake and to eat it too.
On one hand I have a beautiful almost 4 year old son, Ethan, on the other hand I want a LIFE.
So how do I juggle this you ask? Well I have a mum, a retired mum. She’s had her years to have a social life, now I’m having mine.
I don’t dump Ethan on her everynight but I have at least one night to myself a week, I also have sporting commitments and a university degree to complete.
I have my boy full time – no weekends off, no alternate weeks, and while I don’t complain about that how are you meant to start a relationship or get your hair done with an almost four year old in tow?
All this got me thinking, am I damaging my son? I was thinking ‘I’m not spending enough time with him’ ‘is he going to resent me?’ ‘ Does it make me a bad Mum?’
After thinking about all this day in day out, I came to the conclusion no it doesn’t. The hours I spend with him are more quality, I don’t get as frustrated with him as a lot of Mums do with their kids.
So next time you start feeling guilty when have some time out or choose to pursue your dreams – don’t. You’re a mum but you’re also a human being – one with selfish feelings and one that needs an identity.
Laini x
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